New Year, New Banner

A lot has changed this year and although I still love Cosmo and Danny, Chance has become part of the family. This year I learned to value myself and my work. Chance helped immensely with this process being my creation and a projection of myself. I look forward to next year and a new Divine Acid chapter!

Bout to eat that SWICY BULDAK RAMEN

At H-E-B with the fam. Getting me some goodies.

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YES

Okay no music then

 I tried wikiplayer and it doesn't work cuz it's old as shit. I tried using elfsight but that shit limits you to like 200 views and a lot of them do nowadays. Unfortunately, music isn't an opinion here. *sobs* 

The only thing I can do i make a separate Playlist on my YouTube channel and try to embed it here but otherwise im throwing in the towel. If anyone can tell me work around to all of this lemme know. 

Music Player decided to break because it's limited to 200 views

 *cracks knuckles*

Fuck it I'll do it my self 

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LMAOOOOOOOO I LOVE IT SO MUCH!

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It's funny you ask cuz we got a little bit set up in the next chapter! Stay tuned!!

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I appreciate it! If it's hard to tell, it's Cosmo, Danny, and Chance! These are all hand drawn with markers!

AMA: What inspired me to make Divine Acid

Okay this is gonna require a long answer because Divine Acid had THREE previous renditions before I started the current one. The reason for this was because I had a lot of self worth issues, impostor syndom, and just tons and tons of other emotional and mental problems from being abused throughout the years. I was not able to have the success I have with this current rendition if I did not go to therapy and confront my trauma and inner demons. So anyway, let's get started!

So the first rendition was simple. It was done on a little wacom tablet (no screen), and I didn't have any webcomic experience. The first and formost inspiration was Alvin and the Chipmunks. AATC was what inspired the overall set up. A guitar playing rabbit and his brother. Now as for the characters, Chance the rabbit was inspired by Hilly Burford from back at the Barnyard. Aaron was inspired by a teacher I used to have but it's a problematic story so I will no go into it. I changed the inspiration for Aaron but I'll get to that later.

So this first rendition didn't have much to it but it set up the foundation of what is Divine Acid today. I gave up about half way through with only 19 pages. The premise of this rendition is After Aaron and Chance got done singing on stage they encouter a hater on the way home and it kills Chance's confidence and he refuses to sing ever again so Aaron decides to move the next concert to literally their house. That's it. I never finished it.

So next up we have the second rendition which.....was okay. Wasn't that great. Chance was DEFINITELY a huge prick.

The premise for this one was Chance and Aaron go to San Antonio to have a concert in front of the Alamo which is an homage to Selena.A villain named Logan wants the fame and power for himself so he kidnaps Aaron and tries to feed him to a killer whale at Sea World. Chance was down right AWFUL in this. But that wasn't why I gave up. I gave up because well, I felt that nobody cared or didn't want to read my comic.

Now this last rendition shifted the focus from Chance to a new character named James. The comic was called No Bleeps Given and the style was weird and then it just shifted to an anime style at the end but overall the comic was better constructed. It only had two episodes with the second not even finsihed.

Once again I gave up on this comic. I lost all interest for the same reasons as the other two.

After this for about four or five years after, I got into the Dragon Ball fandom and made fanart. Participated in a few fandom projects that all fell apart and just really led to nothing except for a new love of the anime. I will always love Dragon Ball. Infact, I love Dragon Ball so much that I incorporated elements in to the FOURTH comic! Divine Acid!

Divine Acid started during the Covid era. I had three months off of work so I used that time to make this comic. The art style was better and so was the story telling. By no means was it the best but definitely better that the previous renditions. I was proud of this one. I had people actually wanting to read and falling in love with the characters. I was determined to stick with it.

But even then, I still had problems. I was still fighting my inner demons and my emotional and mental traumas. I still had impostor syndom but I was putting up a fight. During the "Dungoens and Discontent" chapter...I was slowly posting. I was losing motivation. Then I went on a side quest. A Fairly Odd Journey.

The only reason I, at this moment, couldn't be any prouder of Divine Acid was because I went on a Fairly Odd journey which led to my own down fall. I will not go into detail but the summary of it was that I ditched Divine Acid to do Fairly Oddparents art (and some Danny Phantom) only for me to lose eveything due to me exhibiting problematic behaviors from not confronting my traumas and inner demons. It wasn't all bad. In fact, the entire journey with the Fairly Oddparents taught me a lesson. It was a journey of self transformation. Learning to value myself and my own work. Because of this journey I learned to love and value Divine Acid for what it is. I even wrote a blog about how Chance was a projection of my lower qualities.

And a year later after my Fairly Odd Journey, I am here with a family that loves me, friends that care about me, and fans that look up to me. Me and the crew are working on the next chapter and I couldn't be anymore excited!

Hope this all answered your question!

My Shadow self that is Chance the Rabbit

We all have that part of ourselves that we try to repress, ignore, and run away from. The part of ourselves that makes us uncomfortable. Our shadow selves is a part of who we are whether we like it or not. In terms of Psychology, it is an unconscious aspect of ourselves. Esoterically, there are certain conditions to where you can go even deeper with it. Like in my case: Accidental Hypersigiling.

What is hypersigiling you may ask? A hyper sigil is a drawn symbol or a piece of art drawn with intent and then charged in various ways. This term was coined by Grant Morrison, who was notable for turning his comic, The Invisibles, into a hypersigil. This is essentially what I did with Chance. The only difference is, it was an accident. How did that happen?

Well, in 2009, when I first made Chance the rabbit in high school. I didn't have any sort of intention whatsoever. He was just a happy go lucky bunny with a big ego who could sing and play guitar. That was it. In 2015, I stopped drawing him for a while because I gave up on whatever rendition of the comic I was doing at the time. My self esteem was low, my self worth was low. The only thing that was high was my envy and my rage. I went of a side quest of fanart for Dragon Ball, Foster's Home, and My Little Pony. No Chance the Rabbit was to be seen because of course the fan art made it easier to get traction and followers. Unfortunately, fandoms are toxic. Now I didn't have the worst time in these particular fandoms. Only one but we'll get to that later.

Fast forward to 2020, back when we were on lockdown. Well, at my job, we were told to stay home because everyone was trying not to get covid. So it was basically a three month vacation. I took this opportunity to bring back my boy and start the beloved webcomic Divine Acid. Now I'm sure you're wondering "When are you going to get to the hypersigiling part?" Oh don't you worry. We're getting there because what makes this rendition of the comic different is that I was just introduced into the occult. It was also a time I was into Dragon Ball which played a role in it.

This time around, I didn't just bring Chance back, I projected a lot of myself into him and the comic. I poured all of my insecurities and all the qualities I hated about myself onto him. At the time I didn't have the knowledge, recourses, or skills to deal with all of my shadow aspects so I just channeled it through him in not just the comic but a lot of my artwork. I projected all of my anger and envy expressed though visual anger using Dragon Ball inspired expressions. In fact, I designed and modeled Chance after Vegeta with that tough guy attitude. This was during a time where I put the tough guy act on myself and ran away from my "foolish emotions" pretending not to care about anyone else. Yes quite edgy I know. But that only made things worse. I ended up bottling up so much and my only means of expressing any of it was through Chance. I did this for about three years.

With all of that raw emotion, projection, and artwork, eventually I noticed what seemed like Chance speaking to me. There were times when I would doodle his expressions on a big empty canvas, based on how I felt and what I saw in my mind as if he wanted me to channel those out to convey a message. While I did take note of this, I didn't think much of it. I did question if Chance somewhat had a mind of his own but never actually took the time to dig deeper.

In 2023, is when I started resenting him and the comic. I mean who would want to look in the mirror and only see the worst parts of themselves? At this point in time I had confirmed that Chance was indeed....semi-sentient. My only thought process was "well if I keep doing this comic and keep drawing him, I'm only going to manifest these shadow aspects and make them worse!" So, I considered quitting the comic and drop him all together. I was only SLOWLY updating the comic with weeks in between pages because I got so mentally exhausted and the resentment made it harder and harder for me to push through. Then I went on another tangent.

In comes the Fairly Oddparents! I'm not gonna go too much into detail with this one. Long story short, I ditched Chance for fanart of the Fairly Oddparents during the new series, gained popularity, and connections only to have one of the worst experiences of my life and lose it all. Now, don't get me wrong there was some good that came out of this. It was one of the biggest and most valuable life lessons that helped me realize what's actually important. First off, it helped me see the value in my comic, Divine Acid and secondly, Chance needed to be approached with compassion and understanding.

The thing is your shadow self is neither good nor evil. It just wants to be understood. So with the help of Cosmo and Danny, who they both have helped me TREMENDOUSLY, on this journey, God Bless them, Love them so much, I have worked up the courage to actually reach out to Chance, talk to him, and understand him upon which I realized this is just my shadow self manifested. I spent all this time hating him and resenting him when in reality, I was hating and resenting myself.

About a week and a half ago I was told about understanding the moon. I didn't get it at first until now and it makes sense. The moon has two sides. One side illuminated and the other covered in darkness. It represents the two aspects of ourselves. Obviously the shadow self being the the dark side of the moon. If you're an esoteric practitioner like me, certain phases of the moon can be useful for shadow work. I started doing shadow work in late 2023. It's hard the first time around but the more you do it the easier it gets and the more you understand it. Shadow work is never done. In fact, it takes a life time. You're always learning and discovering new things about yourself and your life's journey.

Upon working with Chance, I have discovered a few things:

‣Improvement on self worth,

‣Awareness of problematic thinking as well as more control

‣Less tendency to feel lonely as being alone with myself is now more enjoyable.

‣Better communication with said shadow self which is just me communicating with him.

‣Better control of emotions, especially anger and sadness

And this is only after a week and a half. I'm excited to spend more quality time with him because boy oh boy he could definitely use it. Poor little guy.

Anyway that's all I have for now! I will see you next time! And don't forget to catch me on my live streams!

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I can't choose just one so here's my top three in no particular order.

DEFINITELY Zahira, runner up would be Chance, and then Aaron

Oh I have a few I DEFINITELY wanna do!

•  Alvin and the Chipmunks 
• Dragon Ball 
• Fairly Oddparents
•  Danny Phantom 
• The Critic

 I will get to them someday!

Some updates and what's going on

Okay so this month was super stressful and busy. For one, I had tons of commissions with a couple of time sensitive commission mixed in there so I had to really concentrate and get them done before christmas. Secondly, I have also been grinding on Divine Acid character designs. ONE of the characters who is also an antagonist just has a lot of tentacles.......she's a squid. So her ref sheet is going to take some time. So apologies for those waiting for the comic. The third thing is I had to be reminded of a few past issues. So you can imagine how that really just put me in a bad mood. I'm okay now. I didn't engage with any of it and none of it was that serious. So at this point I am burnt out so I will be taking a break until some time in January.

Until then, my inbox is open. I'll answer whatever messages, questions, or feedback you may have.

Chance: Everything's gonna be okay!

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Thank You! 💚

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It was okay. Time with family was great. My mood soured when I was reminded of something I wish to forget.

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Holy Christ! This is so good !! Thank you!! 

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Ah screw it. I'll just use strawpage since it's easier for you guys. Prefer not to make it complicated. Plus having your messages get eaten is annoying. If things get out of hand I'll either turn the inbox off or switch back to NGL. NGL has like these safe guards on it which is probably why your message got eaten.

https://lordmarucoatl.straw.page/

A couple of Art pieces

Here's a couple of art pieces I wannna share here. This one was a commission: Content Warning: Slighty Suggestive

and this one was for fun (hi res image exclusively on Ko-fi via monthly membership):

Literally me

Quick History of Chance the Rabbit

 Okay I think it is about time I make this a post. Chance the rabbit has always been my prized OC. He was like my best friend growing up. Sounds cheesy but whatever. Anyway, Chance didn't start out looking like a sexy hunky rabbit. In fact, he started out as a little feral rabbit. 

The inspiration for this character was that of 90's furry cartoons. Particularly Alvin and the Chipmunks and Looney Tunes. One particular character inspired me to make this rabbit and that's Hilly Burford from Back at the Barnyard.

Yeah seriously. Chance the rabbit started out as a rabbit version of this guy which is still wild to me. Every time I tell someone this they are just so dumb founded. I mean how did a sexy rocker bunny come from that? 

But anyway, back during this time, I was OBSESSED with Alvin and the Chipmunks mostly because the live action movies were a thing and.....look.....they're not for everyone....they weren't the best movies......but I loved them immensely. I took inspiration of the music aspect and made Chance a guitar player. Then I made youtube videos in the 2010's and pitched the songs to make it sound like he was singing. Same with Aaron actually. These two became a duo and not long after I made a comic of these two. Three failed attempts actually. That is of course until Divine Acid became a thing and it's been my pride and joy since. Happily creating the comic along with two co-writers. 

When it comes to  the design of Chance will he evolved immensely.

By the end of this was when the Dragon Ball qualities started coming in and now I'm determined to make him into a Shonen Bunny. 

And that's what he's become at this point. Divine Acid has a lot of Dragon Ball inspired elements and I can't wait for people to see its progression! Hopefully someday I can make an indie animated series at some point. 

Playing Sandbox Here

Okay so I fucked around with the code of this website, tested a few things here and there and I think I got it to where I like it. So at first I started it out with having the Twitch video play at the very top which was pretty cool but for some reason showed up in the gallery as well which was annoying. So what I did instead was to add a little "LIVE" blinker.

LIVE

This little blinker will display when I'm live on Twitch and will show up like this:

There isn't anything fancy here. It's all coding and I have to manually turn it on by changing one word of coding and that's it. When the "LIVE" blinker is hidden, it's still clickable and will lead you to my Twitch. Just know ofcourse....I'm offline. But anyway, I'm sure you'll notice the little speech bubble. I just thought it added to the early 2000's aesthetic I'm trying to go for here. Plus if I don't have enough words for a full length post like this, I can just type shit there. I think that's all I have for now. If you have any questions or suggestions, let me know. I think I'm don't with coding today.

Ask me anything part 1, I guess lol

Okay so I'm gonna go ahead and answer some anonymous messages I got on NGL. If you wanna send me some messages, the contact button is up there. There's two options: A contact form where you have to put your information (that's mostly for formal purposes) or my NGL which is accessible within the contact form itself as an alternative method of contact. So yeah this whole blog exists as my little safe haven where I don't have to deal with any drama from other apps. All under my full control. 

ANYWAY! Let's get to the questions!

I will say he does do a bit of tango with Jennifer. Not all the time but on occasions! He's more of a rocker bun than a dancer but when he wants to be sexy he will. 

I am not very cultured in analog horror but it does intrigue me. I would love to see more. The only time I ever see it is when my friends watch it. 

Two. English and Spanish. I don't know enough Japanese to count it because I only learned by ear from anime and dubbed western cartoons over the years. I know a few words and a phrase or two but not enough to fully count it as a language I speak. I would love to learn and I also want to learn Mandarin. 

Night Owl Struggles

When you want a latte but it's late at night and you can't used your loud ass espresso machine cuz it's 4 am

Okay so why did I make this blog?

 Well because sometimes I wanna write about my thoughts and some of those thoughts can't fit in a BlueSky post or on Instagram so here I am. On top of that I have always wanted my own little corner of the internet to just fuck off into. A space just for me. I might make a blog for Divine Acid....maaaaayyybbbeeee idk. Otherwise, Divine Acid updates will be posted here. 

Speaking of Divine Acid, I am currently doing character Designs. I am currently working on Gel and she is a monstrosity!! 

Look at this bitch! A finished version of her character sheet will be exclusive only to Ko-fi. All in HI RES! If you haven't subscribed as a member on my Ko-fi, please consider it as it helps me as an independent artist as well as Divine Acid as an independent comic production.

Now the next character I need to design is Piper and she is going to be a hoot! You'll either Love her or find her annoying. Then I gotta design the boats they'll be on and a few other things. So apologies if things have been taking long. I have been drowning in commissions which is fine cuz that's income and also since it's near Christmas things are just busy in general. Busiest time of the year.

Okay that's about it. I gotta go and do some stuff.